古代闺秀被强高H

Chapter 442 Love so hard.

　　Of course, all the teasing that he had done in the night came up on to him like a wave of nothing but sheer embarrassment in the morning. With his face covered in nothing but shame, Xiao Hua sat at the dining table together with Little Zimo and Li Hanjing, since Yu Dong has given him a day off because of the incident from last night, he didn\'t have to go to the bar but he was pretty sure that Yu Dong only gave him a day off because of the misstep that he took last night. 

　　" Of course I did, but I would have liked it if those stupid feelings came out in a much more sophisticated and romantic way…not in an \' I want to bam wham, whack a wham\' with you kind of way. Now she must be thinking I am some sort of perverted mer like those peeping toms who peeks into her bathroom when she is taking a bath," he cried while covering his face. " I can\'t understand why that happened. I mean just three minutes ago, I was like I am keeping these feelings to myself and am not going to tell her not until Fang Chi\'s child is born but then she placed her hands on my waist and I don\'t know what happened to me that I blurted out those words, my life\'s over now. It\'s the end. Officially." 

　　" Oh please stop being so over dramatic brother Hua," said Little Zimo as he placed a stack of omelette rolls on the table together with a bowl of what was left of yesterday\'s Dong fish. " I am pretty sure that Miss Yu might have been stunned by what you said but like you just told her she was affected by what she was seeing and that might have played a good role in what happened last night. I mean you have been bottling these emotions for a very long time, even earlier than Miss Yu\'s marriage with Brother Chi, it is not a surprise that you blurted out what was going on in your head when you like Miss Yu more than you are comfortable with and if anything the air that was heating up last night added more to the mix." 

　　Xiao Hua only narrowed his eyes at him. 

　　" I suspected that you might have already jumped on her when you began telling us what happened last night," Little Zimo added. " But it seems I was very wrong." 

　　" Were you now?" 

　　" Of course, I have seen you eye Miss Yu like she was some sort of rare delicacy that you can\'t have for ages, when you told me that you were alone with her, I thought damn maybe you did it but you were much more of a shy custard than I thought shame but if you were to take my suggestions——"

　　" I don\'t need them." 

　　" ——- you should have done what your body was telling you to do, I know Miss Yu would have objected but if you are hoping that she will come to you on her own then you are damn wrong. She has four husbands and from what I have seen, she also has a weird sense of responsibility towards them. I am not saying that she doesn\'t love them, she does but it is a love that seems to have been nurtured out of responsibility, I don\'t see her falling in love with you without you making a move on her. There is a high chance she will see what she is feeling for you as something that\'s letting her husbands down but that\'s simply stupid, the first three husbands of hers were more or less arranged by her mother and she shouldn\'t have any love for them at the starting, the same goes for Brother Chi, sure she is nice to him as well but isn\'t it like they were basically forced upon her to bear their responsibilities?" 

　　" Little Zimo watch what you say," Li Hanjing glared at him after he took a quick glance at the corridor that set the dining room and sighed in relief when he saw that no one was there. " You just carelessly speak whatever comes to your mind, do you have any idea what you are even saying?" 

　　"Am I wrong though?" Little Zimo placed the spatula that he was holding on his shoulder and shrugged casually. " You have to admit that what I said was right, even if it\'s hard to admit it but it\'s the truth. All four of them were pressed onto her shoulders to take care of and she might have had her rough edges but she has made it up to them, don\'t you think that she has the right to love someone out of her own free will then someone being pushed onto her? It\'s a hard pill to swallow but everyone here knows how the marriage between Miss Yu and Brother Chi came to be, I am not putting him down but I also don\'t want my big brother Hua to hold himself back because of anyone." 

　　Li Hanjing frowned. " I know that you want what\'s right for Xiao Hua but you don\'t have to be so harsh." 

　　Little Zimo snickered as he went back to the stove and flipped the green onion pancake. "Truth is always harsh, brother Hanjing, you might dislike it because it is weirdly unpleasant to hear but it\'s the truth.  You deny it as you want and so can others but do you dare to say that if Fang Chi and the others were not bounded to Miss Yu she would have fallen for them? And I am not talking about the confident version of their current selves, the one they were before, do you seriously believe that she would have looked at them the way they were?  Love blossomed between them but you get my point? We have seen them when they used to come to the tavern, never once they dared to raise their heads and Brother Liu was more of a thug than the gentle mer he is now. I won\'t deny that many will say that I am wrong and that brother Hua might be ruining the happiness of their family by sticking his nose in the matter but——"

　　He flipped the pancake on the plate and then placed it in front of Xiao Hua. " But from what I see Miss Yu is not as unaffected by our brother Hua, she is attracted to him not due to responsibility or anything but out of his own wits and personality. The fact that she ran away last night? The fact that she gave him a day off today? It\'s a blatant sign that she wants to ignore what she is feeling for him. So, why should I go ahead and tell brother Hua, oh just stop chasing her? If you were to ask me you should chase her harder than you were originally, because women like her hardly accept what they feel because they are used to thinking about others so much that they forget thinking about what they want." 

　　Li Hanjing exhaled heavily as he looked at Little Zimo and Xiao Hua who were staring at each other seemingly talking with their eyes. "Let\'s just stop talking about this for now all right? Since Hua Hua made a little mess up last night, let him pull his mental straps back up before we think of something like that again, all right?" 

　　Xiao Hua rolled his shoulders as he grunted.  " You are right about that, I think I have done enough damage for one night."  He picked up his chopsticks and stabbed them into the rolled omelette before putting it in his mouth. Why was loving someone such a hard thing to do anyway? All he wanted was to stay next to Yu Dong and live a peaceful life until they are old and ugly with their grandkids running around their house so why was it that he has to think of so many \'ifs\' and \'buts\' while chasing his happiness?